white to the black,
Front to the black,
Up to the down,
Mute to the sound,
That is how it sound,
That is how It bounce,
Our lives to crack,
Our lives to the ground,
Rise Up and fight,
That is how it is right,
Don’t let it tight,
but let it glides,
now i try myself not to sleep till morning coz i need to think last minute activities for iccf retreat ….. haiya …..
hayooo … i wish somebody can massage me … i need masaage now ….
silver bell …. silver bell …hahahahahaha …. valentyne’s song …
day by day …. week by week …. month by month ….im waitting for any news … only 1 news that was from his boss….
im worried….
does he has enough food to eat ?
does he has enough rest after long day waorking?
does he reads bible and pray to Jesus daily?
does he cry when he is in trouble?
hows his smoking habit?
hows his mood?
hows his skin look like ?
hows his hair ?
hows his colleague treat him?
hows his work ?
and the most important thing is ….
does he still remember me and love me ?
prayfully,YES!!!!i believe……
how i wish time could turn back……
i will wait for another month …. i still s.m.s’ing him hoping he will read….i still hugging his pillow every nite……i still wearing his ring……i still praying for him….
IM STILL HERE FOR HIM………..
BREMMER PLATINI
Have mercy on us Lord
MISS DIANA class wooooo …..statistic class…..fuhhhh…..i was trembling when i entered her class ……. she ever made me feel discouraged and made me cried…till i always skipped her classes……scary!!!!!!but now she seems to be a bit friendly….she started to call me ‘dear’ …..hermmm ….
my problems ….my miseries….my worries…..seems like settling down…..not to say everything is sooooo SETTLE but i have no stress at all within this 2 weeks…how marvelous and how wonderful….i feel like ’soaring’ on d sky freely….i praise God for the ‘break time’ that He has given me now….
….could u imagine urself struggling with honesty?!its very hard to be honest when u r pretending to be the ‘good gal’….i praise God for giving me COURAGE to be HONEST.i got through it all
when i was in miri (my hometown) the whole april , my 2 years ago of prayer had been answered….our st.columba’s church youth member multiplied and growing….i did jammed with TEENZ BAND in church.they were my sunday school student before but now they are my praise and worship musician band…wow,they have grown up!looking at their hand screwing the guitar and beating the drum is very beautiful thing that had happened in my life……i praise God for answering my prayer
i never had much confident in my personal relationship ….but now im not too paranoid about him anymore….its been 3 month i didn’t hear any news from him but i still in love and be cool about it because i believes God will make a way for me and him….within last 3 month , i really feel empty without him around….i dreamed about him almost every nite because i miss him sooo much.i cried everytime i came across the places that we used to visit….(wink-wink)..when i’ll meet him,i will hug and ask for forgiveness from him because we’ve been notty all this while….
i praise God for giving me chances to love bremmer and to be loved…..
i learned a lot from my sweet buddy .dita…..with him , i could dream beyond d sky…he is the person that full with dreams,thats d reason he is using ‘SKYRIAN’ as his nick name…..with him, i could cry , laugh ,angry and happy….he is the person that is very good in dealing and coping with human emotions (although his emotion often shaky )…..with him , i could share my love…..he is the person that good to be friend with but not as a lover (i’ve tried it)….i praise God for giving me a true friendship through fransiscus andita kacandiwa
i have a friend named nila…..she is the first close friend that i have in inti college…the way we met was very unique….through christian’s worship song…on january 2006, when i was still new in the hostel,i always came across a room that playing loud music but peacefull music….i was attracted by the song that she was playing and i asked for the lyric……it started there and the friendship blooming…..she is very weird and quiet….but when she is with me,she is crazy!!i miss her hugs and her advices….i always disturb her sleeping time because she sleep during the daytime and she study during the nite time….i’ll climb to her bed and fit myself into her blanket….then, we will gossip and talking till we get tired….she knows 95% of my secrets…..now she has gone back to indonesia and left me here with my new friend….its not easy to have a good friend and changing friend…every semester,i’ll have new friend but nila,she always be there for me….i praise God for the giving such a good friend like nila……thanks for your tears , sweats and ur laughter babe ….
i praise God for having my future in His hand……..i praise God that He will give ’storms’ and ‘thunders’ for me to experience the growth of maturity……
y am i so confident with the troubles and worries that would come?!
"i can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthen me" Philippians 4:13
yes, ’storms’ and ‘thunders’ of life do comes in our life but God will never let those who believes in Him being drown and strike by storms and thunder of life
i praise God for giving me a great day …..i need to stop typing it but i’ll never stop praising God in my heart….need to sleep …….
seekor kelinci hijau sering diselubungi persoalan ttg kehidupan seekor kelinci pink,
kelinci hijau mempunyai kehidupan yang lurus, naif dan teratur tetapi bosan,
kelinci pink mempunyai kehidupan yang penuh cabaran , perubahan dan keasyikan tetapi tetap keren(cool)
kelinci hijau sering mahu menjadi seperti kelinci pink tapi masih ga berani,
kelinci hijau punya teman cowok,namanya si kelinci hitam ,
kelinci hijau sering memberi karot@carrot kepada kelinci hitam,
tetapi kelinci hitam sering ga mau makan karot itu kerana ga enak dan mencari karot yang lain,
kelinci hijau terliat karot2 yang di buang oleh kelinci hitam banyak terdampar di atas sungai,
kelinci hijau sedih,
kelinci hijau teringat dengan temannya si kelinci pink,
kelinci hijau nekad mahu mencuba menjadi seperti kelinci pink,
kelinci hijau mulai memberi karot nya kepada kelinci kelabu,
kelinci kelabu ialah temen baru nya si kelinci hijau,
kelinci kelabu suka makan karot yang di beri oleh kelinci hijau,
kelinci hijau bersukacita dan sedikit demi sedikit kelinci hijau tidak lagi memberi karot kepada kelinci hitam,
tiba2 kelinci kelabu tidak lagi mahu menikmati karot yang baru daripada kelinci hijau,
kerana kelinci kelabu masih tidak dapat melupakan perasa karot yang lama,
kelinci kelabu mulai keliru,
kerana buah karot yang di beri oleh kelinci hijau itu tidak dapat di liat,
padahal selama ini cuma jus karot aja yang sering di minum oleh kelinci kelabu,
dimana buah karot nya?!?!
kenapa cuma jus nya aja yang dapat dirasakan?!?!
‘hayooo bukalah mata mu ,
jus karot itu tidak ada perbezaan@perbedaan nya dengan@ma buah karot itu kerana jus karot diperbuat daripada buah
karot,
sedarlah dengan kenyataan itu,’
‘aahhh,timbul lagi persoalan’….suara hati kelinci hijau….
kelinci hijau sudah bosan dengan persoalan,
di waktu kelinci kelabu masih dengan kekeliruan nya ,
kelinci hitam mulai sedar kalo kelinci hijau sudah tidak lagi memberi nya karot,
kelinci hitam meminta kelinci hijau berikan semula karotnya,
tetapi kelinci hijau sudah tidak punya karot lagi kerana semua nya sudah dikongsikan kepada kelinci kelabu,
kelinci hitam balik ke sangkar nya dan terliat sangkar nya masih punya karot,
karot itu dulunya dijadikan sebagai tiang sangkar,
dari dulu lagi kelinci hitam tidak pernah sedar kalo sangkar itu dibina oleh kelinci hijau,
kelinci hijau juga sudah sedar kalau dia tidak tega untuk menjadi seperti kelinci pink,
pada mulanya memang sukar untuk balik dan masuk ke sangkar yang lama dengan kelinci hitam,
dan juga memang sukar untuk berhenti memberi jus karot kepada kelinci kelabu,
tapi dengan segala kekuatan kelinci hijau menjawab semua persoalan itu,
dan kelinci hijau bebas daripada persoalan…………………………………………
kelinci hijau tidak akan pernah melupakan kelinci kelabu kerana kelinci kelabu adalah sebahagian daripada persoalan di dalam
kehidupan kelinci hijau yang sudah dijawab……
kelinci hijau tidak akan pernah berhenti berdoa untuk kelinci kelabu supaya boleh mendapat jus karot yang lebih enak lagi,
kelinci hijau juga tidak akan berhenti berharap untuk membina semula sangkar karot bersama kelinci hitam supaya lebih kukuh,
*maaf kalau kalian bingung membaca cerita kelinci ini…..
cuma boleh di baca dengan hati yang banyak persoalan……
jangan pernah banyak tanya tentang kehidupan….tetapi jadilah jawaban untuk persoalan…
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo pinbun in memory
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo ding-dong and jamal rules!
